Verse

Lately I’ve been feeling like a hypocrite

I’m an inspirational rapper, but I’m feeling like I want to quit

It makes me sick

But honestly school is getting the best of me

I face a lot of pressure and think it will be the death of me

I’ve got a billion and five assignments to do every day

High school’s in the past, now college is on the way

Plus I’ve got a bunch of after school activities

My peace is a magnet. Stress is attracted to me

I’ve got to be the best at everything

That’s hard when I am doing homework when I should be sleeping

I get upset and decide to do some grieving

Excuses start entering. Inspiration starts leaving

My duty is to lead people to joy in Christ

I’m not always the best at that

I do experience happiness in my life

But sometimes negativity steals my bliss in a heist

Chorus

I look at my reflection and I’m mad at myself

Feel like I’m nothing but a failure. I can’t find my wealth

I look at my reflection and I’m mad at myself

Why do I do this? I feel like I’m stupid

I look at my reflection and I’m mad at myself

I feel like I’m nothing but a failure. I can’t find my wealth

I look at my reflection and I’m mad at myself

Why do I do this? I feel like I’m stupid

Verse

Sometimes I think I’ve reached a dead end

How am I supposed to inspire the world when I can’t uplift my best friends

Some struggle with doubts. Some struggle with depression

They don’t want to look to Christ to help them with the mess that they’re in

While I spend my days composing these songs

One of my friends struggles not to put a blade to her arm

I talk to her on the phone to distract her and calm her down

But she’s convinced she has no purpose and walks through life with a frown

What’s even worse is I hardly speak to my mom

I go weeks without visiting her knowing that I’m wrong

Because she often reminds me she could die any day

In thirty years, will I have more regrets than good memories

It’s my job to show them His love, right

I guess I’m failing there, I keep messing up

I’m trying to be an example of God’s light

Too bad all the people closest to me see is a dark night

Chorus

I look at my reflection and I’m mad at myself

I feel like I’m nothing but a failure. I can’t find my wealth

I look at my reflection and I’m mad at myself

Why do I do this? I feel like I’m stupid

I look at my reflection and I’m mad at myself

I feel like I’m nothing but a failure. I can’t find my wealth

I look at my reflection and I’m mad at myself

Why do I do this? I feel like I’m stupid

Verse

Yeah I’ve made mistakes, but I can move past them

We all fall short of His glory. But why be sad when

He gives us second chances every day

Though we abuse ‘em

I quit somethin’ I’ll never say

Won’t give Satan amusement

I won’t be able to solve my friends’ problems

Because I ain’t God

That should not be shockin’

But I know how to make the pain stop

Toss your burdens on Him

They weigh you down like eight rocks

The price of sin He bought when

He was crucified on a cross

God is the Truth

We must live out His word

We will battle hard times

And days sadder than Squidward

Don’t let that disturb

Your faith in Christ

Give Him the praises that He deserves

You’re something He won’t desert

My woe is me days are in the rear

To my loved ones, please forgive me

The time Jesus will return is near

And when He does, He will wipe away every tear

Chorus

I look at my reflection, I ain’t mad at myself

Even though sometimes I fail through Him I find my wealth

I look at my reflection, I ain’t mad at myself

I know I’ll get through this. God help me get through this