I’m an imposter

I say that I’m pretty

Until I feel it

Is it dishonest

Faking a feeling

I don’t believe in

Constantly nauseous

I spent every evening

Trusted completely

Is that what you wanted

Me thinking I’m fearless

When really I wasn’t

I don’t want to spend my life in front of a mirror tearing myself apart

So sick of the nights I wasted time falling apart

I don’t want to be that one always numb to the feeling

Thought I’d be fine by now

It’s not like I haven’t tried

Don’t mind me, I’m just falling apart

Guess I’m an imposter

I act like I’m healed but I’m hardly breathing

So who makes that call

Would someone be honest

I thought I was pretty

He said that I wasn’t

I don’t want to spend my life in front of a mirror tearing myself apart

So sick of the nights I wasted time falling apart

I don’t want to be that one always numb to the feeling

Thought I’d be fine by now

It’s not like I haven’t tried

Don’t mind me, I’m just falling apart

It’s not pretty (would you think I was pretty?)

How I see it (I’m an imposter)

I’m an imposter (but you don’t see)

It’s speaking volumes now

I don’t want to spend my life in front of a mirror tearing myself apart

So sick of the nights I wasted time falling apart

I don’t want to be that one always numb to the feeling

Thought I’d be fine by now

It’s not like I haven’t tried

Don’t mind me, I’m just falling apart

(Don’t feel ready to talk

I’m not ready at all

I’ll just stare at the floor

I’ll just stare at the walls

Don’t feel ready to talk

And I’ve said it before

I’m not ready at all)