I just want to feel it

I just want to know it's here

Headfirst to the bottom

Skip ahead to the new year

Lasts forever

Now I've found it

Cut it out like a bad habit

Playing with your dinner

Call me when you're older

Looking at you honest

Never getting closure

I get contemplative

When I know you're not

In my bed

It's always just in my head

Don't wanna feel you coming closer

When the ball drops

You pick me up an hour later

Back at my spot

Lit cigarette was burning rings into the seat foam

I should know better but I still can't seem to let go

Playing with your dinner

Call me when you're older

Looking at you honest

Never getting closure

I get contemplative

When I know you're not

In my bed

Miss it when the joke lands

Punch you in your red mouth

Dream of getting older

Kicking on the comedown

I feel so frustrated

My baby doesn't want me too

It's something I always knew