When I gave him another chance

I was met with eye rolls"They don't understand"

Under covers you would console

You'd say"They don't know what the truth is"

But every time you put me through shit

Maybe there's a tiny little piece of me that likes it

Coronas clicking

On the floor of your car

Where are we going?

He'd say"Somewhere far"

Fight, kiss, make out in the rain

Call it passion or it's just insane

I know we're long over and it's for the best

But I can admit that I miss

Being reckless, reckless, reckless

I've been with some good guys

I was bored out of my mind

I miss your cat-like eyes, mystery twined

I'd say"You don't know who he really is"

They'd say"Trust me you don't deserve this"

Maybe there's a tiny little piece of me that likes it

The devil you know

Is better than the one you don't

All of the lies I told

To keep us afloat

I'm a masochist, storm-chasing, idiot

Didn't love you I loved the thrill of it

I know we're long over and it's for the best

But I can admit that I miss

Being reckless, reckless, reckless

Remember yearning and waiting?

I'm standing at the gate of your daydreams

Let me in, let back in

You're in every prayer that I'm praying

Hold onto the phantoms they're fading

Oh God, I drank the KoolAid

The poison's in my veins

The devil you know

Is better than the one you don't

All the lies I told

To keep us afloat

I'm a masochist, storm-chasing, idiot

Didn't love you I loved the thrill of it

But I can admit

That I miss

Reckless, reckless, reckless

Reckless

I'm a mess because of it