At times I'm down, they say I should write it down

So right now, I'ma write it down

Find the noun to describe it, mind like a vibrant town

But I disguise it or hide my frown, I don't-

I don't blink I just eye the ground

I don't drink I just try to drown, I don't think

I'ma even be around to live life, if I don't live right

And switch my life around (Like right now!)

Mr. Complainer

Pitching the pitch of my pain, let it sift in a strainer

Pissed with some bits of my brain

'Til you witness these spits when I'm drained

Like I rinsed a retainer

Which entertainer, isn't at risk of the same

When you mix in a pinch of some fame with addiction that stains ya

Day after day till you've kicked it like Neymar

Missing my aim but

Cuz I've left it this late, to get it fixed

I guess I never did wait, to get a fix

Cuz on the stress I fixate

Every mistake's an effing piss-take

With the glass half empty

It's like my envy is measured with hate

I feel cooked cuz my dark past fed me

An entre that's set on a pessimist plate

And I'm eating it up

Sheldon's weak, my self-belief is corrupt

That's why I get deep with this stuff

Yeah deep as a cut, yeah deep as my cup

Grief in my gut but it's hard to digest

And it's getting damn hard to cry less

I guess death's a grand part of life

But I wasn't ready to have my Grandfather die yet

Right then a piece of me changed, a piece of me knows

At least he's at peace now, released from his pain

I've been keeping this deep down, I'm needing to speak out

I'm needing to re-route this breach in my brain

Gotta do it for him, prove who I can be

Gotta do it for my fam cuz I ruin their sleep

Gotta do it for my fans, and my mates

And for fuck's sake man I gotta do it for me

Do it for me, so I can move fluently free

I've been looking for a clue or a key, but a few are in reach

I've been stewing in the sewer so long

I assume I could pursue a degree in being blue as the sea

A clean mind's like a cured disease

If you've ever stood in my shoes you would agree

Placed in these same old shackles

But I'm facing the same old battle as a newer Complete (Yeah)

And he can win it

When I see my dependency on these cans finished

I'm sick of being a mean sad cynic

So I gotta get clean just to clean that image

Cuz I've never really been that timid

As the minute I finally got admitted to this rehab clinic

Where I'm nervous as hell as I work on myself

So I might make some deep tracks in it cuz

There's some noise in my mind that I try to drown

But sometimes something inside me decides I should write it down

Write it down, write it down

There's some noise in my mind that I try to drown

But sometimes something inside me decides I should write it down

Write it down, write it down