I've gotten less reckless

From the pills or brain development

Or learning how long it takes to put myself together again

Usually the intertwining pulls me underwater

I fight sinking in like quicksand

As I write go down farther

And I swear that I'm not scared of you

I'm just scared of my patterns

And sometimes my judgement's not enough

To save me from disaster

And I don't want you to pay the price

For shit you didn't order

So I wear it on my sleeve

So you know what you're signing up for

And for years I've sat here wounded

Wailing about every wrong

And people have passed through me

I don't let them stick around for long

And I'm quick to tell my secrets

They dont even feel much like mine

This constant sense of newness

Sits at the surface of my flickering mind