I pull up to the house, hang my head and sigh

Wonderin' why I feel so dead inside

We used to be on fire, now it's cold as ice

Love gone cold and I'm wonderin' why

'Cause when we first met, it was love at first sight

Now we scream, now we fight, you can't stand the sight

Of me when I walk through the door

I've been wonderin' how this relationship can take any more

You used to run to me when you heard my keys

Now you rush past me like I'm just a breeze

I know I'm the reason that your smile's gone sore

You've cried on these floors till you can't cry no more

Now I just keep quiet and keep to myself

But I want nothin' more than to give you all of myself

I wanna speak my heart to you, but I just need some help

I think you still love me, let's take that love off the shelf

I'm haunted by the days when you looked at me like home

Now I'm scared you'd rather face this world alone

I know I did damage I can't undo

But every regret that I've got still points back to you

I got regrets in my blood, but it stops right here

I've hurt the ones I love, the ones most near

Can't change what I've done, but I'm beggin' You, God

Don't let my kids carry all the weight that I've got

Regrets in my blood, but I'm breakin' that chain

I've passed down hurt, I've passed down pain

If I can't rewrite where this all came from

I want to love 'em better before my time is done

I sit and think about the man I wanted to be for you

Compassionate, strong, and always speakin' truth

But your daddy lied to you one too many times

Said I'd be home, that I'd play, just to push you aside

I can't help but think you must be disappointed in me

You're old enough now to see all that's disjointed in me

I'm saddened by the way that you understand love

'Cause it's only 'cause you've seen how I treat your mom

If I'm honest, it's one of my biggest regrets

You deserved so much better, now it's stuck in my head

That I might've changed your future, but not for the best

And I'm wonderin' if there's anything I can do to make it better

I wanna be the dad that shows up when you call

Not the ghost in the hallway leanin' into work calls

I see your eyes look away when I enter the room

And I know that says more than any words you assume

I pray you heal from the version of me you've known

I pray you learn a love that I've rarely shown

I can't change the past that I built out of fear

But I'll spend my life tryin' to be better from here

I got regrets in my blood, but it stops right here

I've hurt the ones I love, the ones most near

Can't change what I've done, but I'm beggin' You, God

Don't let my kids carry all the weight that I've got

Regrets in my blood, but I'm breakin' that chain

I've passed down hurt, I've passed down pain

If I can't rewrite where this all came from

I hope I can I love 'em better before my time is done

All of my issues I can see started with you

Mom and Dad, I love you, but this is the ugly truth

My inability to be loving started in youth

With the screamin' and the fightin' that I witnessed too

You never settled a fight, just swept it under the rug

Needed therapy, but alcohol became the drug

And Dad never treated you right, I see that now it was

The straw that broke the camel's back and ended what was

I think I'm scared that I'm just repeatin' the same mistakes

Headed to a fiery end and can't seem to pump the brakes

I pray that God can catch me before it's too late

There's gotta be a brighter day, I can't see behind the hate

'Cause I've learned to shut down when the tension climbs

Stuff the anger down deep, let it bleed through rhymes

But if I keep runnin' from the wounds I own

I'm gonna leave my kids the same broken home

I'm not who I wanted to be

But I'm beggin' for a chance to change the story

God, if You're listenin', would You deal with me

Don't let my failures be their history

Don't let my failures be their history

Give me strength to apologize and stay

Give me courage just to look 'em in the face

If there's mercy for a man who's messed up this much

Then write Your grace into our family blood

I got regrets in my blood, but it stops right here

I've hurt the ones I love, the ones most near

Can't change what I've done, but I'm beggin' You, God

Don't let my kids carry all the weight that I've got

Regrets in my blood, but I'm breakin' that chain

I've passed down hurt, I've passed down pain

If I can't rewrite where this all came from

I hope I can I love 'em better before my time is done

I sit and think about the man I wanted to be for you

I got regrets in my blood, but it stops right here