Waking up is getting harder every single day

Staring at the ceiling turning fifty shades of gray

Phone is buzzing on the floor I kick it to the side

Buried under blankets like there's somewhere left to hide

Coffee in the cup is getting colder by the hour

Standing in the darkness of the shower

Water hitting skin but I don't feel a single thing

Just waiting for the silence that the evening's gonna bring

Walking down the street I see the faces blur away

Listening to words I don't have anything to say

Traffic lights are changing but I'm standing on the curb

Nothing in this city is exactly what I heard

Heavy in my chest, yeah it's heavy in my bones

Surrounded by a million people feeling all alone

Maybe if I jump I'll finally learn how to fly

Or maybe I'll just hit the ground and that'll be goodbye

Too fast

Too slow

Don't care

Let's go

Numb

Numb

Numb

Numb

Totally numb

Heart is beating hollow like a broken drum

Lights out

Black out

End of the show

I am all packed up and I'm ready to go

Mirror on the wall is looking like a stranger now

Trying to pretend I'm happy but I don't know how

Smile is a costume that I'm wearing for the show

Take it off as soon as I have nowhere left to go

Bottles on the table and the pills are in the sink

I don't wanna eat and I don't really wanna think

Static in the air is getting louder in my ears

I haven't felt a genuine emotion in some years

Rotting in my bedroom while the sun is coming up

Empty promises and just an empty plastic cup

Friends are calling me but I just let it ring to voicemail

Life is just a sinking ship and I have lost the mainsail

Drifting in the ocean and the water's getting cold

Stories that I wanted to tell will never get told

Body is a cage and I am rattling the bars

I'd rather be a pile of dust floating in the stars

Numb

Numb

Numb

Numb

Totally numb

Heart is beating hollow like a broken drum

Lights out

Black out

End of the show

I am all packed up and I'm ready to go

Panic is rising I'm feeling the pressure the walls are all closing in tight

Fighting the demons and fighting the shadows and losing the will for the fight

Running in circles I'm dizzy I'm nauseous I'm sick of the noise in my head

Wishing that I was somebody else living a different life instead

Thoughts are attacking and stacking and cracking the pavement I walk on today

Nobody listens to anything anyone anyway has to say

Clock is just ticking and tocking and mocking the time that I waste in the dark

Trying to light up a fire inside but I cannot find even a spark

Spiraling down to the bottom the bottom is calling my name from the deep

Promising nothing but silence and darkness and endless and beautiful sleep

Give me a reason to stay in the season of pain and the season of rain

I am just tired of playing the game and I'm tired of going insane

Too fast

Too slow

Don't care

Let's go

So this is how it ends, not with a bang but with a sigh

Watching as the colors drain out from the evening sky

Sorry to my mother and I'm sorry to my friends

But everybody knows that every story has to end

Put the pen down on the paper, turn the lights out low

I am ready for the credits, I am ready for the show

To finally be over, yeah it's finally done

Zero is the number that comes after number one

Numb

Numb

Numb

Numb

Totally numb

Heart is beating hollow like a broken drum

Lights out

Black out

End of the show

I am all packed up and I'm ready to go

Numb

Numb

Numb

Numb

Totally numb

Heart is beating hollow like a broken drum

Lights out

Black out

End of the show

I am all packed up and I'm ready to go