This time I got am I using it ?

This faith I got am I losing it ?

These morals I got am I true to it ?

The way I'm living fuck I'm used to it ?

And why I only say please god when I'm stressed I should pray more want less right?

They say life is chess right?

Damn I'm good when I play it

Am I a manipulator please say it I overthink myself in amazement of what I could be doing but am I losing it ?

I'm sacrificing time for what I love

Is it a sacrifice ?

Not so many get to do what they want

Am I living right ?

No am I living ? not just breathing

What I'm seeking is deeper than the actual meaning

Family first to me other people would say god

Not a non believer im spiritual not much into allah

But why? am I programmed to say "oh my god"

But it's only

When I'm stressed get scared or perplexed when there's little when there's a mess when I need him at my worst but not too much when at my best

It's like a preprogrammed text

I'm a hypocrite I guess but

i could admit it It doesn't mean that I'm sinning though

You could still live right by your own meanings like

Don't do things outta spite

Don't talk dirty behind the backs of the people you don't like

Don't wish the worst on others just wish they future is bright

Still something in my heart it just don't feel right

This time I got am I using it ?

This faith I got am I losing it ?

These morals I got am I true to it ?

The way I'm living fuck I'm used to it ?

And why I only say please god when I'm stressed I should pray more want less right?

They say life is chess right?

Damn I'm good when I play it

Am I a manipulator please say it I overthink myself in amazement of what I could be doing but am I losing it ?

From a very young age momma said don't fear no man

Might gotta stay in your own lane that's just apart of gods plan

So never lose faith in yourself cause you can't wait on no one else

to get where you wanna be in life you gotta just take it when the time is right

Cease every moment every day and night you gotta be ready when the lights shine bright

Ion even know what I'm looking for

Drop to my knees and pray to the lord

Guide me he'll open that door

Show me how I'll achieve more

You can buy Roleys can't buy time so how much can I afford ?

This time I got am I using it ?

This faith I got am I losing it ?

These morals I got am I true to it ?

The way I'm living fuck I'm used to it ?

And why I only say please god when I'm stressed I should pray more want less right?

They say life is chess right?

Damn I'm good when I play it

Am I a manipulator please say it I overthink myself in amazement of what I could be doing but am I losing it ?

This time I got am I using it ?

This faith I got am I losing it ?

These morals I got am I true to it ?

The way I'm living fuck I'm used to it ?

And why I only say please god when I'm stressed I should pray more want less right?

They say life is chess right?

Damn I'm good when I play it

Am I a manipulator please say it I overthink myself in amazement of what I could be doing but am I losing it ? This time I got am I using it ?