I wonder if you meant it, any of the times you said it

Or did you just regret it? Every second, every minute

The sad part is I could never hate you

After everything, I still forgave you

It doesn't make sense, why I'm still upset

Still hanging onto everything that you ever said

Nights spent wondering why I wasn't enough

You left me lying on the floor with my ribs crushed

I wonder if you meant it, any of the times you said it

Or did you just regret it? Every second, every minute

Did you mean it? When you said it?

Just regret it, every minute

Even love is ruthless and these wounds are proof

That we survive, but at the cost of being used

Why do I always let the wrong ones in?

To give them the satisfaction of having them win

Well, I won't bury the hatchet, I want my revenge

I wonder if you meant it, any of the times you said it

Or did you just regret it? Every second, every minute

I never had it that good before

I felt so alive till I bled out on the floor

The one that stood out from the rest

Ended up as being buckshot through my chest

Fucked me up

Like an all-out blitz

Had to get a fix, got it nice from the 6

So I got a dark clique, real shit, no tricks

Bad luck, bad bitch, fuck you, feel this

What's it worth to feel your pain?

When it soon discovers rage

And we've grown to resent each other

Push ourselves away, pushing down the pain

Putting faith in you was my only crime

Your words are poison dripping off the vine

I cut out every memory

Till you're fucking dead to me

I still hope you fucking hurt just like I did

You never deserved any ounce of my kindness

You know that I heard you fucking survived it

Still hoping you're breaking under your vices

You'll never hurt in the ways that I did

I regret all the times that I fucking forgave you

Used to abuse, so I'm easy to lie to

Still wondering why did I love you?

When I couldn't even trust you