It's Been Awhile

And it's been awhile since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile since I first saw you

And it's been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again

And it's been awhile since I could call you

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

The consequences that are rendered

I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile since I could say that I wasn't addicted and

It's been awhile since I could say I love myself as well and

It's been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up, just like I always do

And it's been awhile, but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem

The consequences that I've rendered

I've gone and fucked things up again, again

Why must I feel this way?

Just make this go away

Just one more peaceful day

And it's been awhile since I could look at myself straight

And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry

And it's been awhile since I've seen the way the candles light your face

And it's been awhile, but I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember

As fucked up as it all may seem to be, and I know it's me

I cannot blame this on my father

He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile since I could hold my head up high

And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry