I Hate Hartley

Seems like forever

Like forever, like forever

Since I tore myself apart

And left my friends in the wake

Of countless tears and fading life

When I couldn't seem to grasp the life I lead

And the lives I touch, it's one year on now

One year on, one year on

Still I struggle with the same demons

I shed as I laid there lost in my head

Lost in my head

Lost in this goddamn hospital bed

I'm not the same man and I don't dare try

Try to uncover all the darkness I hide

It's like my demons are my lovers

But I've got friends (Friends)

By my side

I've got hope (Hope)

In my eyes

And dreams to aspire to

And the whole wide world to watch below

And death won't be my lover

I've got so much left to give

And take my life with subtle steps

Instead of not wanting all that is left

Instead of trying to take my own life

It's one year on

And I'm stronger, I wanna live much longer

Not grow old and bitter

And not jaded

And not hate what life gave me

Let the fear wash away

Let the demons blunt their claws

On a life that's full of mistakes

But always searching for much more

I won't die defeated

I won't die defeated

I won't die defeated

I won't die

'Cause I've got friends (Friends)

By my side

I've got hope (Hope)

In my eyes

And dreams to aspire to

And the whole wide world to watch below

And death won't be my lover, oh

I've got so much left to give

And take my life with subtle steps

Instead of not wanting all that is left

No, death won't be my lover

I've got so much left to give

I'll take my life with subtle steps

Instead of not wanting all that is left