Staring at windows

Looking at nothing

I feel scared that I

Can feel this way again

Scratching at my skin

Just to feel something

Hydrocortisone and Sorbelene

Still dry

Smile like I’m weighed down

It’s such a shame how

We are burdened to be free

And scared to fly

Can’t shake the feeling

Wrestling, weaving

Through the magnitude of space

Between each sigh

(I’m old enough to know the difference between a thought, and feeling)

I’m so glad

It's colder in the water

To feel what I love

And I love it now

A change in place

and temperature’s in order

Steel in my blood

I love it now

(aaah)

Staring at windows

Look and see nothing

Mind’s a boomerang

That leaves- but won’t arrive

Don’t feed the dogs, wait!

Give it till daybreak

Learning to be still

Is half the ride