My ghosts have stayed at bay,

I could not see they would come back to haunt me

They’re here and they’re out for blood

Now I know, I will never be free of this curse

Time shall not heal all wounds

I will never know a life without you

I fall when I let love in

For it all turns to pain

As though it were my blood,

(My blood)

Your fear courses through my veins

Pathetic! (Unworthy) un, unloveable, undeserving

Your abandonment, a scar on my soul

I was always a burden

Always moving, always gone

Fuck!

I search for your love in the hearts of others,

Wherever you are not around

I search for you in an empty home

Yet your shadow is all that I found

There’s nothing you could tell me in my heart I know it’s not safe

And I know you don’t care, I know you don’t love me, you don’t want me there

There’s nothing I could tell you, in my heart I know you won’t stay

I was met by your darkness, where your light was meant to be

You always held the sharpest blade

You have cut the deepest wound

My trauma, my sorrow, my pain

My greatest gifts from you

And you’ll never know!

Find me under the falling rain

Find me under the falling rain

Find me under the falling rain,

Where all I remember is your pain

There’s nothing I could tell you, in my heart I know it’s not safe

And I know you don’t care, I know you don’t love me, you do not want me there

There’s nothing I could tell you, in my heart I know you won’t stay

I burned in your Hell with you every single fucking day

You failed me

You failed me