Yeah, look

Lately, I went missin' with no permission, it's part of it

I been workin' harder than competition from start of it

Now they lookin' at me, I see 'em all through the rearview

Kill yourself to get your spot, then they die to be near you

They think that I made it, cause' I made it past them

They were never the target, my target is past Em'

They laugh, but they laughed too, when they talked to me back then

Guess it's déjà vu, I'll be back when I lap them

Hate that I acknowledge haters, call it a curse

I'm on a search for validation, guess I don't know how this works

But I'm learnin' on the job, you can never please 'em all

I see why rappers get that money, and then all they do is ball

Let 'em know I can feel the transformation

I don't want to change, but part of me just wants to make it

Pardon me while I vacation, part of me wants to be famous

But what good is being known if I don't 'member what my name is?

Everything is changin', I just pray it's for the better

This used to be my diary, now it's an open letter

Hope that I can take the heat, I been used to the coldest weather

I'll do what I gotta do, the industry should know what's better

I say the real shit that you afraid to say

Then I get shit for sayin' it, I'd rather get a thanks

People steady takin' shots, but more and more they feel like blanks

And all these rappers get upset my team is movin' up the ranks

Get your weight up, I don't wait up

I can't count the nights I stayed up

Man, sometimes this life's a bitch

But I just hope that this bitch pays up

Used to want it, now I need it

That's the difference between failing and succeeding

Far as underground goes, my numbers do the talkin'

Couple hundred on the table

All I gotta do is walk in, but I won't

Really, I could use the money, but I don't

Reputation all I have and that ain't ever worth a quote

If all I'm worried 'bout is cash, I'll be in the game for a second

I'm in the game to break records, not in the game to take second

Where the hell is my crew at? Behind me, boy, you knew that

Soon as I get a little bit of buzz, it's like these people try to do that

Soon as we get a little bit of pub', it's like that circle get a little tighter

Soon as we get a little bit of loot

Those people's eyes, they get a little wider

'Bout done beggin' for green rooms

I be like, "Bruce, just give him that rider"

Got your chick all on my shit

While you just stand there right beside her, like it's cool

I'm just tryna wrap my head around

The fact that one day I'm nobody, then I'm a celeb

What's the basis? I'm in different places

Ride with me or let me be

Only gettin' better, I think I'm ready for anything

Everything is changin', I just pray it's for the better

This used to be my diary, now it's an open letter

Hope that I can take the heat, I been used to the coldest weather

I'll do what I gotta do, the industry should know what's better

I say the real shit that you afraid to say

Then I get shit for sayin' it, I'd rather get a thanks

People steady takin' shots, but more and more they feel like blanks

And all these rappers get upset my team is movin' up the ranks

Get your weight up, I don't wait up

I can't count the nights I stayed up

Man, sometimes this life's a bitch

But I just hope that this bitch pays up

Used to want it, now I need it

That's the difference between failing and succeeding