Yo, I can’t look back

Yo, I can’t go back

I won’t go back

Between masturbation and past relations

I was cheating before we even began dating

We planned a journey together but had our bags waiting

When the past weighs in, it pulls you back with the hand of Satan

Can’t blame him for all of it like the fault it is

Every consequence is a fallen system’s response to sin

God forgives but the actions last is a costly risk

When you’re playin’ with hearts in a way that results in kids

I was almost somebody’s baby daddy

What if I had to stay in Cali to raise a family?

My teenager could say “I’m ‘bout your age when you had me”

And they’d probably use it as an excuse to behave badly

I can’t imagine my life apart from my wife, of course

And I resolve that my pride is all worth my remorse

But striving toward the future means that my eyes are forward

Otherwise at times when the fire falls, I am salt

Yo, I can’t look back

Yo, I can’t go back

I won’t go back

But if I could then I would go back to change things

But I can’t go back

And now it really, really bugs me

I got all this baggage but you love me

I have a past of deceit but you trust me

The past remains what it is

We can’t change what we did

But He gives grace to forgive and that’s enough for me

Sometimes in moments when I feel lonely

I’m tempted by visions of my wife with a guy before me

Though she told me them other suckers got nothing on me

Hypocritically my shorter history tells me she owes me

And if jealousy gets the best of me, then I’d see

The rest of these heads had disrespected me though they didn’t know me

Especially tempest of being raped and molested

Be affecting me in ways unexpectedly leading me to adultery

Because porn is cheating the way I see it

When I’m deceived, I’m swayed to believing it makes us even

Ain’t a defense I make agreeing with faith and reason

The way I treat her will rank me chief an ungrateful heathen

She is not an idol for my obsession

Or an item for my possession denied her exes

My connection with her is deeper, as nice as sex is

Her life is pledged to me, that’s a privilege that I can rest in

Yo, I can’t look back

Yo, I can’t go back

I won’t go back

But if I could then I would go back to change things

But I can’t go back

And now it really, really bugs me

I got all this baggage but you love me

I have a past of deceit but you trust me

The past remains what it is

We can’t change what we did

But He gives grace to forgive and that’s enough for me

We’re not the same, the findings theory is kinda scary

Cats be asking why’d I get married like Tyler Perry

It’s a choice for which my commitment to God prepared me

Better yet, His commitment to me was modeled very clearly

We can bear with embarrassments and ensnaring sins

When we see the sin that Jesus would bear in comparison

We married sinners who married sinners, how fair is it

When we believe that God has declared us disciplinarian?

Our past doesn’t have to define us

When Jesus switches our path, he uses it to refine us

The crap behind us may follow us, even if it finds us

He gives us the grace to embrace and face in a way that’s righteous

Though when we were lawless, we weren’t as cautious

He’s sovereign in the bullets we dodge and the ones we’re caught with

And even though it may cost us, there is a profit

When all is considered loss for the Cross and all its accomplishment

Yo, I can’t look back

Yo, I can’t go back

I won’t go back

But if I could then I would go back to change things

But I can’t go back

And now it really, really bugs me

I got all this baggage but you love me

I have a past of deceit but you trust me

The past remains what it is

We can’t change what we did

But He gives grace to forgive and that’s enough for me