Seeing Negative (Dissapointment)

Well, I'm so fed up with what I'm doing here Nothing is ever interesting I've given up and I said as much It probably comes in clutch That my mouth don't shut I don't get it, I never do How opposites can both be true How I'm put together but so unglued I know what I want, but I don't have a clue I am trying to understand 'Cause I give one hundred percent Why is there a disconnect? 'Cause I'm not getting what I need Too cautious to let someone interfere Won't take my hands off the steering wheel Drained and confused So much to choose Everything to lose Has my ego bruised? Can't forget it, I never will Cancel it with overkill Exhausted but I can't sit still Making me anxious, but I'm high on the thrill I am trying to understand 'Cause I give one hundred percent Why is there a disconnect? 'Cause I'm not getting what I need I'm desperate, swing and a miss I've had enough disappointment It might be my lens Because the negative is all I see I'm so dim, but I can't drive I'm done stuck sitting in the passenger side Oh, where did the time go Fast-paced but so slow? I've been needing a change of pace If I keep begging, then I might get a taste Planned and accidental Wasted potential I am trying to understand I give one hundred percent Why is there a disconnect? 'Cause I'm not getting what I need I'm desperate, swing and a miss I've had enough disappointment It might be my lens Because the negative is all I see The negative is all I see, yeah-yeah I'm only disappointing me