It Starts Now

Well, anyway This is therefore to say Transformation of human consciousness Through meditation Is frustrated So long as we think of it in terms of something That I, myself, can bring about By some kind of wangle, by some sort of gimmick Because, you see, that leads to endless games Of spiritual one-upmanship And of guru competitions Of my guru is more effective than your guru My yogas are faster than your yogas I am more aware of myself than you are I'm humbler than you are I am sorrier for my sins than you are I love you more than you love me And these interminable goings on About about which people fight and wonder whether They're a little bit more Evolved than somebody else, and so on All that can just fall away And then We get this strange feeling That we have never had previously in our lives Except occasionally by accident Some people get a glimpse That we are no longer this poor Little stranger and afraid in a world it never made But that you are this universe And you are creating it, at every moment Because, you see, it starts now It didn't begin in the past There was no past If the universe began in the past When that happened it was now, see? But it's still now, and the universe is still beginning now On it's trailing off, like the wake of a ship from now And as the wake of the ship fades out So does the past You can look back there to explain things But the explanation disappears You'll never find it there Things are not explained by the past They're explained by what happens now Cheer up You can't blame anyone else For the kind of world you're in And if you know, you see that I In the sense of the person The front, the ego It really doesn't exist Then it won't go through your head too badly If you wake up and discover that you are God That's the birth of responsability Because otherwise You can aways look over your shoulder and say "Well, I am the way I am because my mother dropped me And she dropped because she was neurotic Because her mother dropped her" And way you go back to Adam and Eve Or to disappearing monkey or something We never get at it