Real Now

I've been goin through some shit That's gettin' real now People dying all around me man I'm tellin you this shit is gettin real now Lost my grandma didn't know it Can you tell me how that feel now? Got a message saying sorry for your loss I didn't know if it was real now Praying that they got wrong number Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now I was goin thru the motions I was doin all my shit Turnin twenty in the city I was too focused to quit Got on FaceTime with my granny And she told she was proud One week later she was gone And now she up above the clouds Never got the chance to tell her That I loved her for her legacy Everything she did And all she wanted Was the best for me Tell me why the good times Always comin' with the bad Never thought I'd see the tears Ever comin from my dad I been on a mission ever since Get it while I can Everyday I gotta reminisce Thinkin bout the past I been killin all these beats I've been shittin on these rappers I've been prayin that I Never gotta settle livin average Gotta buy my mom a crib Gotta buy my dad a whip Gotta buy my bro the world Gotta get it while I live I don't take no shit for granted Cuz I seen it come and go Imma take over the planet Yeah you fuckers better know I've been goin through some shit That's gettin' real now People dying all around me man I'm tellin you this shit is gettin real now Lost my grandma didn't know it Can you tell me how that feel now? Got a message saying sorry for your loss I didn't know if it was real now Praying that they got wrong number Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now I been battlin' these thoughts That been runnin' through my mind Tryna make my parents proud Takin one step at a time But nobody understands All the shit that I've been goin thru Workin' on the music While I'm studying in dental school Thinkin bout just dropping out And doin what I love But I can't imagine Leavin' my whole family in the mud But they never raised a coward Imma finish what I started Imma juggle all this shit And keep on workin' at my hardest I been goin where my heart is Yeah I know that I'm the smartest Never think about the parties I been doin what my part is I been battlin' the best Imma let God do the rest I'm not gettin' any rest Workin' till I got up next Yeah I know this shit Ain't what it seems But I know I'm blessed Every time that life is hard Man I know that shit a test They been tryna cut the weak Only made it for the best I just pray before I sleep And now I get what I request