All I Do Is Sit Inside My House All Day

Father forgive me for you know that I am always sinning I take no interest partying with liquor, fucking up my system Excuse my language that's a hang up on how shitty I been feeling I'm sorry I feel no attraction I know that it's been a minute Yeah All I do is sit in my house by myself By my wealth And I wonder if anybody really care about my wellbeing Like, if I die would anybody really come out seeking?(For me?) It's been a while since my phone rang Think I'm about to start a motherfuckin' loner gang But it would only be myself Man I wish that I could fly away Book a one-way ticket to the better days Back then when I would suck in all my classes I could see my friends with forced interactions But we graduated, now they got jobs and they're busy I'm just playing Xbox and I feel shitty Man I don't wanna say it man this shit is formulaic I wake up then I go right back to bed an then replay it Music used to be my escape Now it's a nightmare I pray to God but he don't answer my prayers But I'm living Been growing up Spotify blowing up I should be happy, right? I should keep rapping, right? My fans'll be clapping, right? If I didn't try none of this would've happened, right? Yeah I got kids who looking up to me to be a role model Feel like I let 'em down when I down another bottle So I put down the bottle All I do it sit inside my house all day Sometimes I wanna change But I don't ever change, no, no All I do it sit inside my house all day Sometimes I wanna change But I don't ever change, no, no