Make It Up As I Go (feat. K.Flay)

I keep on running backwards I keep on losing faith I thought I had the answers I thought I knew the way My brother said be patient My mother held my hand I don't know what I'm chasing I don't know who I am Woke up this morning holdin' my head Thinking last night is one I'll regret Washing off the bad decisions, the blurry vision The clues that I'm still a mess Spitting out the taste I have in my mouth Knowin' what this all is really about Knowin' there's an explanation, an expiration I gotta figure - out And they're askin' me if I can see The darkness down below And I know it's true, I say I do When half the time I don't Maybe I can't make what it may take To leave this thing behind But I shut my eyes and cross each line And every time I keep on running backwards I keep on losing faith I thought I had the answers I thought I knew the way My brother said be patient My mother held my hand I don't know what I'm chasing I don't know who I am Waking in the dead of night, I can't sleep Sleeping in the light of day for like weeks Reality was out of focus, I could be hopeless Instead I gritted my teeth I didn't have the patience left to explain Didn't wanna wake when nobody came I know the path ahead's uneven But while I'm breathing I have to make my own lane And they're askin' me if I can see The darkness down below And I know it's true, I say I do When half the time I don't Maybe I can't make what it may take To leave this thing behind But I shut my eyes and cross each line And every time I keep on running backwards I keep on losing faith I thought I had the answers I thought I knew the way My brother said be patient My mother held my hand I don't know what I'm chasing I don't know who I am So, I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh So, I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh I make it up as I go, as I go I keep on running backwards I keep on losing faith I thought I had the answers I thought I knew the way My brother said be patient My mother held my hand I don't know what I'm chasing Don't know who I am So, I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh So, I make it up as I go, ooh-oh, ooh-oh I make it up as I go, as I go