Anxiety

I got my finger on the trigger of a pistol Sometimes I wish that my life was more simple Standing so tall yet I'm feelin so crippled Livin on the edge like should I jump out the window And it should never be a mystery, why when I'm looking at my history All I see is pain and Misery, all the rain when it was slippery I'm livin too fast yeah I might catch an injury Life is like a war and I'm fightin for the infantry I paint a picture with my words like literary imagery Losin all my faith, I think it's time to Call the chivalry And when the night falls I let the dark take my dignity I barely feel alive, feel like I wanna die Momma telling me to strive that I shouldn't waste My time Mom I can't explain it, it's too hard with all this pain And l don't know where I am Goin or Why I feel so ashamed Baby don't cry, your life will get better I'm Askin god why I'm still cold in this sweater Society's the reason that I'm feelin so mad Anxiety's the reason that I'm feelin so sad I got my finger on the trigger of a pistol Sometimes I wish that my life was more simple Standing so tall yet I'm feelin so crippled Livin on the edge like should I jump out the window And it should never be a mystery, why when I'm looking at my history All I see is pain and Misery, all the rain when it was slippery I'm livin too fast yeah I might catch an injury Sometimes commitin suicide is like the only option But I advise that before you go proceed With caution Your life is not an auction, you gotta understand There ain't a price that's Enough to take yourself from your fam And all these money situations, problematic litigations, different obligations I can't take it Anymore, so I guess it's time for my personal Elimination As I'm stuck inside this cell, and I'm livin in this hell Every time that I have yelled Ain't Nobody wanna help, ain't nobody wanna help Baby don't cry, your life will get better I'm Askin god why I'm still cold in this sweater Society's the reason that I'm feelin so mad Anxiety's the reason that I'm feelin so sad I just wanna cry, why do I feel so alone I don't wanna die, but I'm losin all control I feel like I'm trapped, as I don't know where to go, If I do collapse lord take away my soul Take me from this hardship and help me find my home Take away this darkness it's all I've ever know I feel so lost I feel so misunderstood, pistol to my dome as I question if I should