I don't want to stay here
I want this feeling to leave
I'm still learning
All the same things
Again and again
I still haven't gone where I've been
Deflect
Misdirect
It's hard to get yourself to want to reorient
I've grown so impatient
Since I stabilized
It feels like a death to sit still
So I distract to feel alive
It stays the same
I used to sit with the tension but it never changed
It's hard to remain
It's hard starting famine in a field of grain
For every hand reached to heaven's high
I'd wait my whole life for a sign
Every time I stood mystified
The purple always faded back to white
It'll take my whole afterlife
To learn how to abide
It's in the waiting I don't know why
It's hard starting famine under festival lights
