Dirty Laundry

Let's do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry Let's do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry When you're soaked in tears for years, it never airs out When you make pain look this good it never wears out This dirty laundry, this dirty laundry While my sister was on stage, killing it like a motherfucker I was enraged, feeling it like a motherfucker Bird in a cage, you would never know what I was dealing with Went our separate ways, but I was happy she was killing it Bittersweet, she was up, I was down No lie, I feel good for her, but what do I do now? Forget the records, off the record, I was going through some bullshit Post Survivor, she on fire, who wanna hear my bullshit? Meanwhile this nigga putting his hands on me I swear y'all don't know the half of this industry Let's do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry Let's do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry When you're soaked in tears for years, it never airs out When you make pain look this good it never wears out This dirty laundry, this dirty laundry And it's almost been a decade I'm behind them black shades Roll up like it's all good, right up out that escalade Fix my make-up, "Get it together, Kelly, get it together" Then we make up, well get it together, nigga, get it together Kinda lucky, I was in her shadow Phone call from my sister, "what's the matter?" She said, "Oh no baby, you gotta leave!" I'm on the kitchen floor, he took the keys I was mad at everybody, I mean everybody Yeah, her, her, her her everybody Five years later, I got my shit down pat Think I had it good, and they don't know how bad Fooled everybody, except myself Soaking in this hurt, bathing in the dirt Let's do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry Let's do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry When you're soaked in tears for years, it never airs out When you make pain look this good it never wears out This dirty laundry, this dirty laundry So here I am in the spin cycle we're coming and we're going Nobody can notice And I was trapped in his house, lying to my mama Thought it could get no worse as we maximize the drama Started to call them people on him I was battered He hittin the window like it was me, until it shattered He pulled me out, he said, "Don't nobody love you but me Not your mama, not your daddy and especially not Bey" He turned me against my sister I missed you Let's do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry Let's do this dirty laundry, this dirty laundry When you're soaked in tears for years, it never airs out When you make pain look this good it never wears out This dirty laundry, this dirty laundry Love is pain and pain is love, he had me fucked up Love is pain and pain is love, he had me fucked up