Visitor

Last night we just laughed as we caught up We told jokes about our lives it was awesome Watching you while you talk left me all struck God how I miss all our talks since I lost ya But I get it, you couldn't come to visit You were busy with your life, I never figured any different I just wish that this just isn't ending soon because I miss it I just hate to see you go man You just got here, lets just kick it You told some jokes I smiled while you smoked man I just hope you love the taste of Winston's Nah I'm good, you know I don't And I'm happy that you're with me 'Cause it's getting hard, I'm losing hope I'm known to overthink like everything But nah I'm moving on Where'd you go? Fuck it I don't need to know You left me and that's good enough for both of us I hope you know, you made me whole You broke my fucking life in two I get it, life is better somewhere else But fuck I need you though Are you happy? I hope you are 'cause then I'm good I can't begin to wrap my head around the loss of you again You left me at my weakest, and I'm seeking light but you and then I see you in my dreams I can't believe we'll never meet again Why was life so bad that you just had to fucking up and leave? I gave you everything, it's fucked up what you've done to me I dumb to fucking see I loved you but I'm wondering If all the love I had for you was worth all of the suffering You know I'm glad for every day we ever had I'm sorry that I vented on you God I hope that you come back To sit and chat, tomorrow night from now I have to wake up and begin again I love you God, I miss you dad