Pretty Stupid

Consumed with doubt, I don't know where to start With this technicolor scar in the center of my heart But I guess, I suppose I'll try and expose why I'm like this Maybe come to terms with my vices All I see haunts me I'll put my head in that noose like I've nothing to lose So put your head in that noose 'cause I've got nothing to prove False serenity in a SSRI You wanna be the fucking hero Then I guess I'm the bad guy Then I guess I'm the fucking bad Guy, no, no Built to believe that redemption is free with suicidal thoughts You even said to me, it's hard getting clean With a fucked heart, won't start A thin paradox, not beating hard With trust bleeding out all over the ground And forgiveness not sight to be found Here I am again with a bloody pen like a knife to fragile skin You think you know, but you don't know shit You think you know, but you don't know You think you know but you don't know shit All it takes, is the wrong time and place these days Raising stakes now Another piece of shit in Adidas NMDs Look at me, no sympathy A pseudo sigh of relief At the thought that everything is gonna be how it should be, fucking be A pseudo sigh of relief You think you got away You think you got away With making me look so fucking guilty And I've still got blood to bleed You should have buried me