bloodstream

Fear lingering Running through my heart like a wild stream Just a little kid Blood flowing into my rosy cheeks Now a river runs red From my knuckles into the sink And there's a pale girl Staring through the mirror at me Maybe it's just a dream Wish I could go back to sleep Hydrangeas Blooming off the branches on park trees It's a half-hearted calm The way I've felt since I was thirteen 'Cause I may not feel it now Covered up the wounds with my long sleeves But I know it's waiting there Swimming through my bloodstream And it's gonna come for me Yeah, it's gonna come for me What did you have that I didn't? And why am I so blue? Someone's talking in my forehead That says, "I'll never be like you" Happiness is like a firefly On summer free evenings Feel it slipping through my fingers But I can't catch it in my hands Catch it in my Old memories Ribbons running down from my bare knees I ran too fast Fell down on my face in the concrete I guess the lesson's learned I barely left my room in the past week And I've got my guard up Trying all the time to stay clean I don't feel anything I don't feel anything What did you have that I didn't? And why am I so fucked? There's someone talking in my forehead That says, "I'll never be enough" And happiness is like a firefly On summer evenings Feel it slipping through my fingers But I can't catch it in my hands Catch it in my