Alone

Wish I could be alone, Without the thoughts/ Broken dreams, not being lost/ Hoping to be alone, with my empty talks/ Sit up in the corner when it's getting dark/ Nobody understands/ I'm not depressed/ From where it all began/ I was all against/ Try to take the hand/ Of the man upstairs, but he left/ Came back down, to realize I was laying in bed/ Couldn't say this was a farewell/ If I couldn't tell you/ I hated myself/ I don't need no ones help/ I just want to be held/ By the ones I care for, but I'm hiding in my shell/ If you don't need me/ Then what's my meaning/ I know beneath/ But why am I breathing/ I know you don't see me/ I'm dreaming/ Yet I'm still achieving/ Nobody puts their blood sweat and fears, into these songs/ I will give you my love next some tears, when I'm in the wrong/ Try to say I'm not empty/ So they can forget me/ I don't hold no envy/ Just hold what sent me/ Half demi and part god at 20/ And if it's my ADHD talking/ It'll keep me walking/ Wondering, somewhere I wasn't stopping/ They tell to stunt/ They want me to grab/ Y'all are some cunts/ This all that I have/ Not about that money/ Ain't about the cash/ If you pass me the blunt/ Imma have to pass/ Imma have to front/ I'm on that gas/ I maybe a cunt/ But you're an ass/ I'm a little funny/ You're going to fast/ Pass me that blunt/ Imma smoke it to ash/ (Smoke it to ash) (Smoke it to ash) (Yeah) The more that I bleed/ The more I'm human/ Understand that I'm me/ Couldn't understand I was losing/ (I was losing) (I was losing) The harder I try/ The more that I cry/ The farther I ride/ I'm sorry we died/ I'm still alive/ I'm very to fight/ But can you see me through my eyes/ Can you see me through my lies/ I cannot breathe/ It's harder to sleep/ When I get bleeped/ I'm so critiqued/ I'm more to peaked/ I'm sorry Im a freak/ Give me life back, to when I didn't have to be please/ (Didn't have to be pleased) (Didn't have to be pleased) Always feeling alone/ Not feeling safe at home/ When I'm not in control/ It feels like my whole world is going to explode/ Needed to go solo/ When I'm up in my studio/ That's when I can feel my soul/ Rapping about the way I feel so I can be in the zone/ Laugh it off post it, now Im alone/