Popular Monster

Da-da-da-da-da-da-da Da-da-da-da-da-da-da I wake up every mornin' with my head up in a daze I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway Everybody tries to tell me that I'm goin' through a phase I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah I battle with depression, but the question still remains Is this post-traumatic stressin' or am I suppressin' rage? And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm goin' through a phase Yeah, it's not a fuckin' phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit everyday And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me I'm about to break down, searchin' for a way out (way out) I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster Break down, fallin' into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular monster Da-da-da-da-da-da-da Da-da-da-da-da-da-da I think I'm goin' nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case? Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take But my therapist will tell me that I'm goin' through a stage Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay Motherfucker, now you got my attention I need to change a couple things 'cause somethin' is missin' And what if I were to lie, tell you everything is fine? Every single fucking day, I get closer to the grave I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again Crashed my car just to feel again It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me I'm about to break down, searchin' for a way out (way out) I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer I'm a popular, popular monster Break down, fallin' into love now with falling apart I'm a popular, popular fuckin' monster