Colorblind

I was wrong And I'm sorry for that Things just haven't been the same Since I got my mind back And I try to hide the pain But I'm never good at that You can love me, you can hate me I just want my soul back And if there really is no God Who the fuck is in my head? Planting seeds of deceit I guess this must be the end They say the grass is always greener on the other side But every time I try, I go colorblind I was wrong And I'm sorry for that Things just haven't been the same Since I got my mind back And I try to hide the pain But I'm never good at that You can love me, you can hate me I just want my soul back And if there really is no God Who the fuck is in my head? Planting seeds of deceit I guess this must be the end They say the grass is always greener on the other side But every time I try, I go colorblind I've been having fucking trouble sleeping Every thought, that's in my head Is telling me to lose my grip and just end it No consequences, I have nothing left I thought this life was something more than itself I'm going crazy, can't trust myself So please just let me go, and try to find home If I lose myself I know that I'll always be alone Fuck