I Can't Move

I can't move No, I'm serious, I can't move I think my blankets are holding me down Like they've got something to prove, a point to me To show how weak I am I know I have that essay to write I need to turn off the light, and make what's wrong right But I can't keep up the fight Because these blankets have a mind of their own They twist around my infinitely heavy body as I just lay on my phone What am I supposed to do, push back? Get on the attack Oh, cut me some slack It's just, it's been a long day I'm tired, that's what I'll say Y'know, tired from all the other laying in bed that I've been doing Isn't it crazy how this alone is keeping me from pursuing my one passion To try to fill what I'm lacking I'm sorry but my mind is blanking I wish I could talk to you but my soul is vacant They say it often comes as a pit in your stomach But I think it's more like a seed that plummets And then it grows a tree, spreading this through my limbs It starts in my chest, but then it spreads to my heart It makes quick work of me, cutting me apart Then it spreads to my shoulders Tenses them up yet weighs them down like boulders As I write this, it spreads down my arms to my fingers I can feel the alarms, but it all still lingers It gets harder to hold this pen up as it eats me up I reach for the water in my cup Maybe I'm just dehydrated, that's what I'll tell myself Blame it outwardly, that should help Because certainly I can't feel this, I can still smile A broken clock, but yeah, I can still tick every once in a while My laugh can still fill the air like a toxic chemical Don't get too close or it might poison you, be careful Because it must be her fault, or his fault, or their fault But not mine, please read my mind Because I can't speak And I can't move