Feelings

Feelings I found myself in a place of sorrow I found myself in a place of grief And at first I didn't have a language for it All I knew something was off And I couldn't trace it back to any missstep I took I couldn't trace it back to anything that I have done That was like a cosquence I was just, my emotions were just I had feelings, I was feeling a lot Um, my lyric was pandemics of something I never even knew could happen Or whether it was relational stuff that was just not working out Friends just not ending, friendship not ending well Or it was just my own personal brokeness Inertenal, inner, internal battle I just had feelings, still have feelings And what I realize is that There is a place and feelings where you can honour the Lord Where I can have these feelings And He is not in heaven like, "Hey, Get out of there" "Get out of those feelings, don't feel that" He is not rushing me to get to a place that I am not But He is not just in heaven but He is sitting with me in it In my tears, in my confusion, in my frustration, in my questions He is sitting here, present with me and I have realized and I have learned something about Him In my feelings that I may have not learned in the Spirit perse I have learned something about Him being the God of my emotions The one who created me And I may not have learned, had I not been in this place I've learned how to suffer with Him I think a lot of times Before in my life, I've slipped into depression easier And slipped into a worldly grief easier Because I've tried to suffer without Him But I've learned how to suffer with Him Through this process I haven't been able to pray like I used to I've learned how to suffer with Him In fellowship join Him in the fellowship of his suffering And that's what this album is, that's what these song's are My process of lement My process of suffering with Him Being able to feel my feelings but not lean on them Father I thank you for allowing me to have feelings