Disappearing

Some nights I'm the sculptor Trying to find your form inside the stone I've been searching for so long Toiling for hours through the sweat and the dust Some afternoons I'm the painter Working so hard to capture your light Your turn your head and it's fleeting Magic frustrating it'll never be right With us it's never easy You know you don't make it easy Some days I'm the diver Risking my life by holding my breath I can't stop going further Closer to drowning the deeper I get Somehow you're my saviour Hold me in your arms tell me it's alright Without you I'm falling Never hit the ground disappear into night With us it's never easy You know you don't make it easy I never had you when I needed you And when I had you it was never enough You had a habit of deserting when I called for you You gave me just bit and that made it worse