Hey, What's Up

"Hey, what's up?" Is all I can get out She knows that there's something wrong "I'm depressed as fuck" Is what I would say If I knew she'd still feel the same So I don't say much 'Cause' I'm scared of the judgment I know she won't even give But I've had enough I've had enough I hesitate to be honest Rather tell you I'm fine and I've never been better There's nothing a matter When really I'm breaking And I'm scared to admit I guess I'd rather be sad Than open up and work through it We can't put to words What we're feeling So we pretend Like it's some perfect world Where everything's okay We're all doing just great "Hey, what's new?" My parents will ask But I barely can give a reply "I'm praying for you" I'll tell them the same When we both know that that's a lie The truth comes through I'm hanging on by a thread And it's only a matter of time It's sad but true There's nothing new I hesitate to be honest Rather tell you I'm fine and I've never been better There's nothing a matter When really I'm breaking And I'm scared to admit I guess I'd rather be sad Than open up and work through it We can't put to words What we're feeling So we pretend Like it's some perfect world Where everything's okay We're all doing just great In all the conversations Never changing It's all routine They stay the same And I know that I'm the one to blame But I won't change Hey, what's up? We can't put to words What we're feeling So we pretend Like it's some perfect world Where everything's okay We're all doing just great In all the conversations Never changing It's all routine They stay the same And I know that I'm the one to blame But I won't change Hey, what's up?