F****d Myself Up

Life flies by when You're having the time of your life But when you are down Time stands still all around The numbers on the wall, tell me to move on But they don't know what I've been through As this sober fool I'm texting numbers on purpose And not having blood run down my knees From drinking too much that week And acting so naive Fucked myself up on purpose 'Cause too much is never enough What is it you want from me? This shit don't come so easily Fucked myself up on purpose 'Cause too much is never enough What is it you want from me This shit don't come so easily Tonight, to get by I curse at the walls and question it all They all say it's too late to save her And it fuels my peculiar behaviour The doors begin to open But I just sit here frozen in fear I'm not here, I'm not here Fucked myself up on purpose 'Cause too much is never enough What is it you want from me? This shit don't come so easily Fucked myself up on purpose 'Cause too much is never enough What is it you want from me? This shit don't come so easily I know that I've been selfish But I couldn't care less I'm always going to come first At my best at my worst I know that this is senseless But I will not regret this Help me to forget this Pass me a cigarette, bitch Fucked myself up on purpose 'Cause too much is never enough What is it you want from me? This shit don't come so easily Fucked myself up on purpose 'Cause too much is never enough What is it you want from me? This shit don't come so easily I'm scared to be alone That's why I don't come home I'm fucked, I'm fucked, I'm fucked, I'm fucked Fucked myself up on purpose I'm scared to be alone That's why I don't come home I'm fucked, I'm fucked, I'm fucked, Im fucked Fucked myself up on purpose