Nervous

Sometimes I lie Sometimes I convince myself that everything's fine I'm such a good actress When I say that I miss you, I miss you, I miss you I think that I actually do And I almost forget there's so much messed up between me and you If I close my eyes, I can't even see I'm in a fucked state of mind This can't last forever I want the attention, I want the affection Then you take up all of my time And besides the sex there's nothing left There is nothing left I know why I lie to myself (I know why I lie to myself) I'm not really looking to get healthy I have so many perspectives, I'm losing perspective I make me nervous I make me nervous I make me nervous Is it OK? That I might be using you for my own escape I know that it's selfish For me to expect you to understand where I been When you been here the whole time As messed up as it is, can we admit it? Can we just say it? I know why I lie to myself (I lie to myself) I'm not really looking to get healthy I have so many perspectives, I'm losing perspective I make me nervous I make me nervous I make me nervous I know it's fine like every other time I know that I lie a little bit every time, almost every time I don't mean to ruin things But I could say anything Sometimes I could say anything I know why I lie to myself (I lie to myself) I'm not really looking to get healthy I have so many perspectives, I'm losing perspective I make me nervous I make me nervous, oh I know why I lie to myself (I lie to myself) I'm not really looking to get healthy I have so many perspectives, I'm losing perspective I make me nervous I make me nervous I make me nervous I make me nervous I make me nervous