Always Saying Nothing

Did you forgive me when I came off boring? I only wanted not to share so much all at once Think I was trying to make it something else again Like a drunk in an alleyway I kept singing to myself about it All the rest of my heads are on the hunt For the mind I lost, I tried to throw it out Are you afraid of heights? I fear I'll let you down too slowly Do I convey the sentiment of one hundred poets only I've the great white teeth of an elephant In the mouth of a bluebird in cement Spent the last three nights chewing on glass Never gave my brain a rest When I cough up the grains of a humble lung And attempt to engage in another tongue By saying shit, I'm saying nothing at all Just saying saying saying saying saying These sudden surges of extroversion Do they alarm or do they help things balance out? Make love in the park while everyone watches Let's go bowling wearing only roses on our crotches We will live in modest homes And surround ourselves with coloured walls I'll depart from my habit of foolish jokes If you pray for me (I'm only kidding, don't) Am I droning on? Am I thinking too much? God damn, take a breath and shut myself up I know I need to get it all right But I just don't have the energy now So we'll decide we're just staying in tonight For a treat and a box of cheap red wine We can play with ourselves and play rah rah Maybe you could touch me there, oo la la la la Little bits of me will live in the air And dissolve into words that scream to be heard If I'm saying them, I'm saying my mind So I'll say it, say it say it say it say it