For Keeps

We don't talk Much these days I'm embarrassed And you're ashamed Way back when I'd kill to coo your name But now it just translates to grief and pain Am I falling backwards I feel like I don't progress You have your people And we have our regrets Am I drunk or stupid I probably just need some sleep Don't know which thoughts to keep Don't know which thoughts to keep I thought you were for keeps The days go by we ain't got much to say Must've been fate that our lives have gone this way Tell me why I pushed you so far away Didn't' want you around but you wanted to stay I guess that you've gotten your way You run through my mind each and every day And now I finally have my space You spin around and around and around The place I thought you were for keeps Why does it matter if I'm your thoughts? I'm just insecure and selfish hoping that you are lost Why does it matter if you miss me I'm just trying to rationalize the notion that I'm better than free Am I better than free? I thought you were for keeps