I've messed up
My heart and my head
Can't stop
Will do it again
I've messed up
With all of my friends
Can't stop
Will do it again
Look at all the mess I made
I can't help but feel like no ones there
Are you still here?
I keep digging my own grave
I don't know if I can work this out
Buried deep now
Breathing in the moment
Feels so hopeless
I can't hold it
But it's hard to let it out
I'm trying but nothings helping
I can't pretend like before
That everything's going well for me
I'm not acting anymore
I'm sick of these ups and downs now
I know I'm hurt but I smile
There's something about this place I'm in
I'll be here for a while
No one seems to understand
Why I bail out on our plans
And don't explain
I'm not okay
Maybe I'm better without them
But I try and I try and I try not to let em go
Hold my cards and keep em close
Breathing in the moment
Feels so hopeless
I can't hold it
But it's hard to let it out
I'm trying but nothings helping
I can't pretend like before
That everything's going well for me
I'm not acting anymore
I'm sick of these ups and downs now
I know I'm hurt but I smile
There's something about this place I'm in
I'll be here for a while
I've messed up
My heart and my head
Can't stop
Will do it again
I've messed up
With all of my friends
Can't stop
Will do it again
