Apologize

A feeling that won't crash I tried to dissipate I prayed it wouldn't last I hoped it'd gone away A fog inside the room A pendulum it swayed And when it all was done A fragment had remained I hope you understand that I fuck up sometimes And that all of the things I say, when I want to apologize Are how I really felt, and not the hand that you were dealt (Yeah, so I called her back the other day) (Honestly it was kinda awkward, it was bad, it was bad) (I know, I shouldn't have said it) (I'm sorry) I let myself revert As if my mind was grayed And now I'm feelin' pretty down, on the inside and the out Because all the words I really meant, I chose not to convey I wish that I had seen I wish I'd realized That in that moment of distress, on-the-spot-mental-duress That all the things I'd come to think were true, they turned out to be lies But still I really know that I fuck up sometimes And that all of the things I say when I want to apologize Are how I really felt, and not the hand that you were dealt If I am being honest, I forget what I promised I sometimes fail to impress But know that in the end, I never did intend I know I have some work to do to be a better friend You cry, I sweat, a nervous wreck The tears start filling your eyes (your eyes) I don't have any doubt, that we can work it out There's no need to surmise 'Cause still I really know that I fuck up sometimes And that all of the things I say when I want to apologize Are how I really felt, and not the hand that you were dealt (Yeah, so I guess I'll call you back) Woah (Give you your space) Woah (Talk to you tomorrow) Woah (Goodnight) Woah, oh, oh