I Wanted My Heart to Break

I don't feel lonely anymore And it's kinda hard to get used to I don't check on you anymore We don't keep in touch, now I'm used to it They said They told me it'll get better, and it did They say you don't cry forever, but I doubted They told me it'll be better, and it is But now I'm kinda sad 'Cause I thought that me and you'd be forever Yet I haven't thought of you in forever I wanted my heart to break I didn't want the pain to fade 'Cause I thought that it meant that I, that I love you And you'd be somewhere losing it, missing me too I wanted our hearts to break I didn't want the pain to fade I don't miss you anymore And it's kinda hard to admit it Could I feel like this with anyone? If so why are we trying so hard? They said They told me it'll get better, and it did They say you don't cry forever ever, but I doubted They told me it'll be better, and it is But now I'm kinda sad 'Cause I thought that me and you'd be forever Yet I haven't thought of you in forever I wanted my heart to break I didn't want the pain to fade 'Cause I thought that it meant that I, that I love you And you'd be somewhere losing it missing me too I wanted our hearts to break I didn't want the pain to fade We fight so hard for something that could let us down 'Cause we get on our feet soon as we hit the ground No one stays broken but this peace might break me 'Cause I thought me and you'd be forever Yet I haven't thought of you in forever I wanted my heart to break I didn't want the pain to fade 'Cause I thought that it meant that I, that I love you And you'd be somewhere losing it, missing me too I wanted our hearts to break I didn't want the pain to fade 'Cause I thought that it meant that I, that I love you And you'd be somewhere losing it, missing me too I wanted our hearts to break I didn't want the pain to fade 'Cause I thought me and you'd be forever Yet I haven't thought of you in forever I wanted my heart to break I didn't want the pain to fade