I wish I was the same

Yeah I also wish I was the same, but nowadays, I numb the pain It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering If I'm still struggling and underneath I am I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying? When I tell you how I feel, you just tell me that I'm lying When I hide behind those walls, it's because I'm fuckin' crying Please don't ask me to open up, 'cause I won't know what to say And don't ask me for any trust; I just feel there's no way Every person that I dared broke it every single day There's no chance to rebuild it, they broke it every way And I wish I was the person that I was yesterday I also wish I was the same, but nowadays, I numb the pain It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering If I'm still struggling and underneath I am I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying? When I tell you how I feel, you just tell me that I'm lying When I hide behind those walls, it's because I'm fuckin' crying And then I'll tell you next time, I hope you don't think I'm lying And it's hard to be me, and it's hard not to care And when I tell them about my problems, they can't help but stare And maybe I'm crazy, or maybe too aware That this life is kinda shitty, I don't really care I'm just asking for the old me to please reappear 'Cause I'm all out of gas and I don't know how to steer And anybody in my past, I wish you could hear Then old me if you're listening, I wish you were here I also wish I was the same, but nowadays, I numb the pain It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering If I'm still struggling and underneath I am I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying? When I tell you how I feel, you just tell me that I'm lying When I hide behind those walls, it's because I'm fuckin' crying And then I'll tell you next time, I hope you don't think I'm lying