Thought It Was Real

Stop trying to not care just stop caring about whether you care I've been there And in my eyes you're still a dreamer And i'm getting nearer I can see by the way you smile at everything and cry at nothing I imagine it's more peaceful without my demeanour Some nice decoration And self deprecation I might just give in But i'm my eyes i'm getting nearer To hitting zero darlin That's some dead conversation Liven me up a little i'm sick and tired of feeling underwhelmed I'm deciding i'm submittal in My dreams i'm sinking once more and it seems It's all coming real I felt it in my bones And that's the last time i fear I'll ever get a hold Of what it means to be here I'm not good at being told What to do with the years I'm starting to feel old for once Forget the bad times blame them on some bad guy Forget the good things they're just a pass Time don't you're excited don't act like You're not dying Stop trying to be sad No you know it aint bad I can't cope with my self But at night you called me crying I wouldn't be lying if i said That i'm feeling like a ghost The time feels like the weather The air feels like a muzzle The weight feels like a feather And i'm plotting my escape Until i wake won't you just acknowledge my adoration You're just messing up my system I'm tryna have a drink whilst your face clogs up my vision But at night i'm sinking once more And it seems It's all coming real I felt it in my bones And that's the last time i fear I'll ever get a hold Of what it means to be here I'm not good at being told What to do with the years I'm starting to feel old And in the streets i feel sonder Everyone i See never seems to stop and ponder what they see could be a dream And in the back seat i've been longing The monotony succeeds in changing me into a Watcher as life rips at its seams And it's out of your control You run it back the same broken home So many people their names there on your phones So many people when you're left alone You thought it was real thought it was real My mouths shut i can't scream The horrors that i've Seen my eyes glued to the screen the television man and his television Dreams everyone i love isn't there i thought it was real I thought it was real