I Told You That I Was Afraid

I told you that I was afraid That I would have a bad trip fall asleep and never wake They told me back at school that it would happen I believed it 'til I didn't I told you that I was afraid Of stating my opinion in a clear and honest way They told me in my youth it wasn't needed Some thoughts are best deleted And everyone agreed it I don't know what I'm getting up for (I don't know, I don't know) I don't know what I'm getting up for I'm not getting taller anymore So, when I fall it's always the same distance as before You'd think that I'd learn to anticipate it By the millionth time I ate it I told you that I wasn't scared That even if I fractured every bone I didn't care I never told a lie so confidently But you let me down so gently The concrete barely bent me I don't know what I'm getting up for (I don't know, I don't know) I don't know what I'm getting up for One more year, then I'll look at the score (I don't know, I don't know) I don't know what I'm getting up for Kindly tell me a lie Will you look me in the eye And say it'll all be alright in the end? Kindly tell me a lie Will you cross your heart and hope to die It'll all be alright in the end? Kindly tell me a lie Will you look me in the eye And say it'll all be alright in the end? Kindly tell me a lie Will you cross your heart and hope to die? Cross your heart and hope to die Cross your heart and hope to die I told you that I was afraid That everyone around holds me in some secret disdain That I was held a fool so far deluded (a fool so far deluded) You told me that was stupid But could never really prove it I don't know what I'm getting up for (I don't know, I don't know) I don't know what I'm getting up for One more year, then I'll look at the score (I don't know, I don't know) I don't know what I'm getting up for I don't know what I'm getting up for (I told you that I was afraid) I don't know what I'm getting up for (I told you that I was afraid) One more year, then I'll look at the score I don't know what I'm getting up for