Not Enough

I look in the mirror and I see Someone that makes me unhappy I look around and see the beauty Of the girls I wish I could be Comparing myself has become a hobby Drain myself and end up empty I say I don't care what they think But it's the only thing making me sink I wish I could love me the way I love others Could help myself but I don't even bother I'm drowning but I'm all alone Seem fine but they'll never know Playing games in my head Mascara stains on my bed I'm trying to keep my tears dry Saying I'm fine but it's a lie Am I my worst enemy Maybe my thoughts are killing me Second guess myself because I think that I am not enough I'm not enough I don't feel loved I'm not enough You're not enough Feels like they're something wrong with me It seems real when everybody tends to leave I'm breaking but they say I'll be okay Can't handle love 'cause I push it all away Maybe I'll try talking some more now But its almost as if I'm being too loud, loud Wish I could love me the way I love others Could help myself but I don't even bother Drowning but I'm all alone I seem fine but they'll never know Playing games in my head Mascara stains on my bed I'm trying to keep my tears dry Saying I'm fine but it's a lie Am I my worst enemy Maybe my thoughts are killing me Second guess myself because I think that I am not enough The damage I've caused myself is hard to believe I'm stuck with the thoughts and it makes it hard to breathe Filling the empty space to run from the pain It's a quiet battle in my head making me insane (not enough) I'm not enough I don't feel loved I'm not enough You're not enough Not enough You're not enough You're not enough You're not enough