On the Edge

Feels like I'm on the edge right now I wish that I could say I'm proud I'm sorry that I let you down, let you down All these voices in my head get loud I wish that I could shut them out I'm sorry that I let you down, let you down Man I feel like I'm falling Trapped in the dark, when they ask I just say I'm fine Head down on the desk, now my teachers stressed But she don't need to know that I'm crying School days used to pickup a pen write down my thoughts Guess I'm not getting 9's But the last time I felt this way didn't know what to say And my mum calling I declined Easier said than done, I thought you're the one But I can't comprehend all the pain All of the lies, the times that I cried I guess I'm not surprised that we argued all day I put the effort at times when I thought it was over I guess I'm the only to blame I wish we were at the same page but you had different thoughts The connection we had what a shame Feels like I'm on the edge right now I wish that I could say I'm proud I'm sorry that I let you down, let you down All these voices in my head get loud I wish that I could shut them out I'm sorry that I let you down, let you down The connection we had a shame But I need a reality check and get her of my mind It's time that I put all the shit in the past and chase money It's time that I get on that grind Like JBee I should've only put faith up in lizzy, cah true love is hard to find I've said it one time and I'll say it again Because all of the back and forths like a rewind, uh It's like a rewind sometimes got me wishing that we were just friends Now I'm putting my phone up on DND to chase money I need me '2MS' like Nemzzz This girl that's from Pari' on one line She's texting me 'Je M'appelle' and she's moving like Benzz This girl from España like 'Cómo Te Llamas' I'm sorry for everything let's make amends Feels like I'm on the edge right now I wish that I could say I'm proud I'm sorry that I let you down, let you down All these voices in my head get loud I wish that I could shut them out I'm sorry that I let you down, let you down Uh, I'm on the edge right now yeah I'm doing everything I can yeah Just to make sure you alright, and I know you love to fight I'm always right, we don't need to be as tight yeah I'm on the edge right now yeah I'm doing everything I can yeah Just to make sure you alright, and I know you love to fight I'm always right, we don't need to be as tight yeah All these voices in my head get loud I wish that I could shut them out I'm sorry that I let you down, let you down Now I know that It'll take a while But take me back to the time when I called you my bae I'm an over thinker, cant forgive yah, my phone is on DND all day Talk is cheap, so I keep things quiet, might just ghost, I got nothing to say My phone on airplane mode till I get things right but when will the pain go away