Lean Into Life

One night, I had a thought What if we all did anything we want? We quit our jobs, we went outside No one could tell us how to live our lives One night, I took a drug I gave 300 uninvited hugs You went to bed, I hit the floor I don't think that we should get together anymore One night, came and went Spent lots of money, it was money well spent I took on some credit card, credit card debt On a night that didn't mean nothing, a night I'll probably forget One night, I had a feeling Bust through a wall, cut through the ceiling 27 Club and I'm still fucking breathing I'm hyperventilating in a building full of people It's beginning to feel like I've Been training my whole life for nothing I've been meaning to tell you something You gotta lean into life, just a little I think I'm breaking my own heart I think I'm making my own self sick at the thought of getting sick I don't leave anymore Did I leave my keys in the door? It was so peaceful before Come on, buddy You gotta lean into life a bit You gotta callous up them hands and get some dirt under them fingertips I, ah, don't think it's skin and papier-mâché ornaments Another Christmas Eve and you're still bumming out about the same shit Come on my friend, yeah you're really going through it You got all this free time, no fucking idea what to do with it Sounds an awful lot like to me you like talking about your bootstraps Go to hell, I am the devil tryna claw my way to heaven I am regretful We had our weekend filled with cocaine and Essentia It was fun and now I can't really remember And yet we wonder why we can't reach our potential I am regretful Yeah, my head is in the gutter Do we really need to sin to love each other Another psycho, I'll get fucked up then recover I just want to be a better older brother My head is in the gutter It's beginning to feel like I've Been training my whole life for nothing I've been meaning to tell you something You gotta lean into life, just a little I think I'm breaking my own heart I think I'm making my own self sick at the thought of getting sick I don't leave any more Did I leave my keys in the door? It was so peaceful before