Penitence (feat. Molly McKinna)

Lately I think I was over Timing my chest Beating slower Like the clouds The colour of them Fading out Fading out Oh, the heavy Heart I carried Went over your head And over mine (Regret) I counted the days she left like a prisoner Etching markings on my skin with an old knife Scratching (forget) You see, I wanted the physical Too much, the psychological And yet, no matter how hard I dug I still could not match that pain (regret) I longed for reason, I sung with demons I sat in a dark dusty room Barely moving, breathing (forget) I chewed through my own umbilical cord Attached to her navel I wanted to be separate Ooh Oh, I think my mind is leaking Ooh Solitude is so depleting I did it to myself I know that you are faithful I did it for my health How come I'm still unstable? I've fallen far from hell A suicidal angel Yes, lost my wings and fell Falling so ungraceful Banished into hell I wish that I could stop crying But they say that the body is 70 percent water I feel like I must've reduced mine by a considerable fraction Newton's third theory states that For every action there must an equal and opposite counter-reaction And so I retraced my steps And tried to find reason in the arms of my demons 'Cause I can't find healing if I can't find meaning A conundrum leaning on my dumb, numb feelings Haven't used high beaming when I hung from the ceiling When I run from demons that are living in my head And escape fate and disapparate, evaporate, evacuate, and inactivate Fake but it cut the breaks Now I'm driving my universe into a lake and the weight Weight of the world don't wait We make mistakes when it's all at stake For goodness sake, a double take But I don't want to eat that cake I ruminate inside meaning To illuminate a dark mind I communicate without speaking And I've seen so much I went blind I'm wide-eyed, live in a lie Live in a lie with a lion inside Live in a lie with a lion inside Of my mind that is hungry, is hungry for my Sanity, my sanity, I Live in a lie with a lion inside Live in a lie with a lion inside Of my mind that is hungry and I don't know why Pressure drop, deep breath, time stops A broken et cetera, dot, dot, dot Pressure drop, pressure drop, pressure drop I feel it consuming, I can't stop Dot, dot, dot, the lines join the dots And I'm tying knots then divide then multiply Square the root of pie, beat the puzzle, I Try to keep my mind focused on the line Hopscotch and pop rock I take shots of teardrops When I drop a pill pop I find peace and time stops