Sister Calls

I feel like I'm just buying time Enough to only make it by So I can keep dream alive I keep asking what I'm doing here Running on this hamster wheel I don't even know what's real Dreading any questions about my life Asking if I'm doing fine My answer never changes I Wish I had a better attitude I can't seem to shift my mood I only see the color blue I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine Don't ask me why I lie I don't want to lie to you I don't want to be burden Tell my parents that I don't have service Give them just what's on the surface Cuz I don't want to tell them that I'm hurting I hate it I hate it When my sister calls me now It kills me to know I let her down Cuz I just want to make her proud So proud But I'm fine I'm fine Doing just fine Don't ask me why I lie I do all time Cuz I'm fine I'm fine I'm so fucking fine Don't ask me why I lie I do all time