Hurt Alone

Yeah, knew as soon as I got the call that there was something wrong I had fell asleep with the TV on I said "Hey, you good?" There was a brief pause Then you said to me, "He's fucking gone" And my hands are shaking, my mind is racing My heart is aching, don't know what to say So I said the first thing that came to mind Which was something like, "You're gonna be okay" "You're gonna be okay?" What a foolish phrase Like your whole life's not about to change And your only options are to sit in pain Or become so numb, you can't feel a thing And the days will change, but they'll feel the same You wanna run away, but you can't escape Going nowhere fast down the interstate Only say all that 'cause I know the pain And to feel like you wanna disappear I hope you know that I'm always here The sad truth is I can't bring him back, but can lend an ear, so You don't have to hurt alone, hurt alone I can't fix it, but you won't be by yourself And I know I'll never know, never know What you've been through, all the messed up things you felt But I could stay down, heavy in the pain, no We don't have to talk if the words don't help You don't have to hurt alone, hurt alone I can't fix it, but you won't be by yourself Yeah, I used to think, "Damn, I wish I had a fam," until I realized that I had two There's the one assigned to me out the womb, and the one that I got to choose So know that you're fam to me, and for family, there's not much that I wouldn't do Been losing your sanity, understandably, and the only way out's to go through But they say you grow through what you go through The truth is that I owe you You were my lifeline in my dark times Now it's my turn to console you Even though I know the truth is nothing will This trauma's gonna take some time to heal I know the war of losing someone close Still, I'll never know the way you truly feel, damn But if you need to vent, or not be alone in your head Just name the time and the place, I'll be on my way, I'm not one to just leave you on read 'Cause that's what you do for your friends and people you love You don't let 'em drown when they wanna give up And trust me, I know how hard it can be finding someone you can trust, but You don't have to hurt alone, hurt alone I can't fix it, but you won't be by yourself And I know I'll never know, never know What you've been through, all the messed up things you felt But I could stay down, heavy in the pain, no We don't have to talk if the words don't help You don't have to hurt alone, hurt alone I can't fix it, but you won't be by yourself Don't know if you've ever thought of trying therapy It's helped me find a little clarity Been learning not to care about opinions from people who won't be there when they bury me I was so desperate, I booked a session Clicked the first place Google recommended Someone answered and asked me a couple questions Told her, "Ma'am, I can't fix this depression" I don't want attention, wanna run away Said she couldn't see me 'til the 28th That was twenty days, was thinking, "Oh, okay, that's a lot of time when you're about to break" I was about to break, I needed fucking help I couldn't do it all by my-fucking-self Hate the stigma put on my mental health Society taught me how to hate myself But I'm still breathing Still speaking, heart still beating Countless nights battling with demons And I'm still here, guess I'm undefeated And I was thinking, this could help Maybe in my story you can find yourself Hard to understand the hand that you were dealt You don't owe shit to anyone except yourself Yeah, accept yourself, know he's looking down And just like me, know he's fucking proud Your anxiety is gonna chop you down Until you start believing that you let him down But never let it win, the battle starts within It's where you go from here, not where you begin It's a blessing to call you a friend, and to know that you let me in, so You don't have to hurt alone, hurt alone I can't fix it, but you won't be by yourself